i dont know if you're reading this at all, but i just feel like shouting everything randomly, out here. just because i feel like it, just because i am crazy like i always am.. just because i am always that big kid to you.. just because who cares what you think at all right now? esp when.. the one who used to be so important to me has left-sometime ago.

i had alr forget how it took place because.. it's not worth rmbering at all.. because who gives a shit abt how i feel on that day? and who knows how i feel every now and then?

do you know... how much, i wish.. we never know each other? things like "feelings" never exist.. i dont like how feelings change every now and then.. emotions too.. and how its played by some ppl.. because to them, its something so FUN.

to you, i've always been that little gal who never seem to grow up. all my ideas were so insignificant to you... and all that i dream of, seem like nothing to you. yet i dont seem to mind back then.. we painted a rather pretty picture tgt, how we want life to be.. and how we're gona achieve it tgt.. and now?

..... zZz after a long chat with my new close friend.. he asked..
is it all worth it? will you be happy if it's a diff ending.. and then, i thought to myself..

no, i'm actually glad it happened this way.. so i know what is it that you go for.. and why am i always the kid. and we wont be the least happy, whatever ending it is..

end of my nonsense.
thanks for even bothering to finish reading.